What am i supposed to do ?!?!?!

u want me to search for a job

but when im sitting in front of the comp

u shake you head

indicating that i shouldnt be doing so

but how am i going to find a job

without the comp???

u tell me

everything is in the net

and to get access to it

is by using the freaking comp

so u tell me

what am i supposed to do?????

why are u pple giving me tremendous amount of stress

u are making me sick again

u are making me more depressed

i want to get out of the state of depression

but u kept pulling me towards it

keep blaming me for everything

putting more pressure

i absolutely hate this

i want to be happy

elated

blissful

10 days later...

bored...
still have not receive any call...

Have you had your SHAKE today?

haha...

yup.

so bored...

zZzZzZzZzZzZzZz......

25 years of living

i'm 25 today...

damn...

i'm old...

already a quarter of a century...

yesterday, met up with bunch of my secondary school friends...

it was a hen party for a fellow mate who is getting married in 2 months' time...

had a great time catching up...

missed them lots...

gotten bunch of wishes via facebook...

very grateful to them...love them lots...

gotten gift from my pals last night...thanks alot...

i love each and every one of U...

and for the very 1st time in my life, i rode motobike...

scariest ride ever...

One month on...

the last time i bloged, i was still working...
now, i'm back in the world of unemployment...

hish...been looking for job since then
but yet to land one...

applied to several job openings...
went to several job fairs...
gone for multiple interviews...
yet, luck is not on my side.

dunno what else to do...

losing hope.

Lepak Day

Yest, at work was so lepak...

Great to be one of those pple with no seat...

Just sat at the back of the office...

Did nothing for an hour...

Ard 10, was sent to lvl 1...

To man the 'e-filing helpline'...

This was much easier than the 'general helpline'...

Had lunch at 11.20am...

Finished eating 10 before 12...

Still got lots of time...

My new friend brought me to the "lepak corner"...

Sure was lepak...

We actualli took a nap...good times.

Had to cover for lunch time...

A hour in this seat, another hour in that seat...

Then back to lvl 1.

All the walking up and down really wasted time...

Not that i care...

Only picked up few calls...

Good day for me...

2nd half day

today had to report early at 8am

sleepy man...

from 8 til about 8.40, had debriefing...

then, surprise, surprise...

for us in Group B, we had to do Quiz 1...

definitely easier than Quiz 2...

after lunch, we got to go online...

not the best time of my day...

after this, that's all i have to do...

in my heart, " i hate this. not looking forward for it"

bummer...

Live Buddy

Did Live Buddy today...

Was nervous initially...

I think i did OK.

Then, was hit by bad news...

Have to man the calls today...

We were like..."huh?!?!?"

Darn it.

It's a shock for all of us...

so NOT cool.

Though only man the line for 4hrs, i feel sooo...

TIRED!!!

and Then, tomorrow need to report early at 8am.

ARGH!!!!

Quiz 2

did Quiz 2 just now...

it's not looking good...

it was damn difficult...

tomorrow gonna do Quiz 1 n Live buddy...

so nervous for Live Buddy...

extremely nervous...

Weekend's Ending

3 days passed soooo fast...

tomorrow back to work...

gonna meet another new trainer...

more new information need to squeeze into my already packed brain...

sian ar...

3rd Day today

today's my 3rd day of training...3 more training days to go before the peak period battle...

past 2 days, the lecture abit dry n lots of information to digest...

me very confused...

how to fill in Form this, Form that...

which amt to fill in...where to fill in...

is the condition met...

what's the other option...

and that's only from the point of view from the TP...

today, learnt from the officers point of view...

where to search id to verify...

which system to use...

what information can reveal...

who can the info be revealed to...

gosh...it's too much for my brain to handle...

need a breather...

luckily, tomorrow the A levellers are collecting their results...

so, all of us getting OFF day tomorrow...

Saturday included (only during training period)...

no need to wake up too early...

wee...sweet!

the day after

my eyes feel as if someone punch me in the eyes...

i hate this...

feel so down...

was supposed to wake up early but i overslept...damn...

guess i'm gonna to that tomorrow...

so i must sleep early tonight in order to avoid oversleeping...

actually packed my bag...

planned to stay away as long as possible...

haiz....the story of my life...

i'm Miserable

so sad....

so miserable...

"Negative. Negative. Negative."

that was all you said about me, to me.

everytime when speak my mind...

"Negative. Negative. Negative."

you viewed me as negative.

i just dont understand.

i'm just being realistic.

to you, i'm "Negative. Negative. Negative."

i cant say anything without being shot back at with "Negative. Negative. Negative."

come on lah. i'm not being NEGATIVE.

know what, you're one of the reasons why i've been having chest pains.

as of present, you're the biggest contributor of my conditions....

you shun my thoughts. you shun my ideas. you criticise me. you bring me down.

for once, i want you, no, i need you to support me. mentally and psychologically.

PLEASE.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah....syukur...

Even though it's only a temporary position, i'm still grateful.

Gonna start next Tuesday. Gotta be at Novena before 8.20am. Training for 7days.

Insyallah, i'll do my very best to do an excellent job. Who knows, there's where my rezeki is.

Alhamdulillah....Amin.

Freak the Freak out

Are you listening? Hear me talk, hear me sing
Open up the door, easy less, easy more
When you tell me to beware, are you here? Are you there?
Is it something I should know? Easy come, easy go

Nodding your head, don't hear a word I said
Can't communicate, when you wait, don't relate
I try to talk to you but you never even knew
So what's it gonna be, tell me, can you hear me?

I'm so sick of it, your attention deficit
Never listen, you never listen
I'm so sick of it, so I'm throwing on a fit
Never listen, you never listen

I scream your name, it always stays the same
I scream and shout
So what I'm gonna do now is freak the freak out

Patience running thin, running thin, come again
Tell me what I get opposite, opposite
Show me what is real, if it breaks does it heal?
Open up your ear, why you think that I'm here?
Keep me in the dark are you even thinking of me?

And someone else above me gotta know, gotta know
What am I gonna do? 'Cause I can't get through to you
So what's it gonna be
Tell me, can you hear me?


I'm so sick of it, your attention deficit
Never listen, you never listen
I'm so sick of it, so I'm throw another fit
Never listen, you never listen


I scream your name, it always stays the same
I scream and shout
So what I'm gonna do now is freak the freak out

Easy come, easy go
Easy come, easy go


I scream your name, it always stays the same
I scream and shout
So what I'm gonna do now is freak the freak out


I scream your name but you never listen
No, you never listen but you never listen

2 days ago...

my new favourite date...12 Feb 2012.

the reunion of 6/5....woohoo.....

it was awesome...we had dinner at Pastamania @ Bedok Point.
catching up and reminising old times...good times.

we moved our gathering to E!Hub Orchid Bowling...
we had fun....

even before we ended the reunion, we were already trying to plan our next outing...

i cant wait to meet them again...

for now, there's some picture that reminds of the great time that we had....

Pastamania @ Bedok Point

E!Hub Orchid Bowling

Valentine's Day

it's 14 February and this is my first blog of the year...

had abandoned my previous blog and created this new blog...

i cant find a reason why it did what i did. i just wanna do it.

so, here's where all my thoughts and rants gonna be at...

let's the journey begin...